The Wait

I am so restless.........my mind wanders every now and then to what it might be........is it "Yes" or is it "No"? Will my prayers be answered or will it go ignored? Yes, at such times I do resort to constant mumbling under my breath which constitutes my only conversation with the Higher Being.....if He exists......and is hearing me........"Oh God, please please pleeeasssse.........let it be a Yes".

However, depression sets in, when finally I get to know that it is not to be........not to be as I wanted......desired.....wished. Why me? Why? Am I not a good Human Being?..........I try to be as far as I can, really.... "When I'm good I'm very good, but when I'm bad I'm better."

Life goes on...with or without.......I resign to the fact that maybe it was not meant to be. Another opportunity presents.........my hopes rises..........and once again I wait.........I wait for the outcome.

I am reminded of Beckett's "Waiting for Godot", a play which I read in my College (part of my Honours syllabus). Like Vladimir and Estragon, I too am waiting for Godot to come. Will Godot come tomorrow?